Don't know what to do

[stacey9]

Yes I think I'm definitely chasing a fantasy here. I feel as if he's cast a spell on me - he gets to decide whether to be hot or cold with me depending on either what mood he's in or how things are going with OW.

I was in his company for most of the day as its son's birthday. He gave him a card with a lovely heart warming story of how him and OW love him and are so proud of him, it's as if she's known him all his life!

He was here without OW of course, and he is just so heart breakingly handsome I almost reached over to touch his face at one point. He radiates some kind of magnetic energy - everyone seems to light up when he's here. Or is that just me. Am I going mad?

I really don't want to post this bit but I am a very honest person so I will anyway - when he was leaving I reached out to hug him and put my arms around his neck. He never responded. His arms remained by his side. It only last for a second but I felt totally embarrassed.

I promise to keep out of his way for the rest of my life.