Not so lost now take 2

[Pax_luv]

Hi Rouky,
I empathize with you and where you are at. As long as YOU know that what YOU need to completely move forward is D, then by all means do it. It's the Rouky show now, right!? We've all said it before and I think it's worth repeating here, but given the opportunity would you choose to love him again? I know you still do have feelings there, but would you and could you? While leaving behind all the hurt and resentment?
I go through this myself and while I completely understand that the MLCer is in turmoil, they are still human and sometimes need to be accountable for their actions. Not punishing of course, but really recognizing that it's time to let you go and if he won't file... Then it's time to set yourself free.