Gym last night, did some running as I got out of work late and didn't have time to do weights. Got home, showered, joined W and D for the tail end of dinner. Notice that there are now 2 large manila envelopes of papers on Ws countertop. D had her back to school day yesterday and W is a room parent. Unsure if these are related to that, or if they have to do w/ W and her Ls. Who knows.
W upset that the washing machine is making a weird sound. Blames it on me using too much detergent since I'm doing my own laundry. I ignore her comment, but may need to get it looked at.
W goes out for a run so D and I build a pillow fort, horse around some, and then do a little bit of iPad while W is showering. I'm not on my A-game last night bc I slept horribly the previous evening. Hope it didn't show to D and she had a good time regardless.
Put D to bed and I go to bed as well. Wake up around 12:45am and W is still downstairs and has all the lights on. Strange. Fall back asleep. Wake up again around 4:45am and W is still not in bed, but the TV is on downstairs. W sneaks into bed at 5am and I get up at 5:15 to go to the gym. In the kitchen I notice there's a large, empty wine bottle in the fridge, and a wine glass drying in the drying rack. Unsure why W is drinking every evening and keeping such weird hours.
Hit up the gym for my morning run. Head to work for a couple hours to take care of some stuff. Take 2 hrs to go to DMV to get another driver's license (lost mine in DC on Monday/Tuesday) and stop by Ls office to discuss retainer options. L not there today, but talking to them next week again.
In the car on the way back to work, I found myself wondering why I'm still worried about WW and getting her back. I've been having thoughts the past cpl days of her and OM and I'm not sure why. Haven't really had those thoughts running through my brain since July and early August. Doing my best to push them out, but it'd had me a bit down. In the car on the way back, though, I felt lighter and more ready to take on this thing. It was a good feeling.
I'm not sure where W stands in her process w/ Ls. She retained one on 7/28, but I haven't seen anything from it yet. Reading Fade's stuff obviously has me on edge, probably rightfully so. I'm finding myself very concerned about the custody piece as I can't imagine losing so much time w/ my D.
One thing W has done is reschedule a sleepover D had from Sunday night, to tonight. She also mentioned to D that she had a friend at the beach this weekend and they might get stuck in this hurricane. W tends to say things to D when trying to craft a story for my benefit. That combined w/ the rescheduling of the sleepover has me wondering if W is going to make something up so she can see OM Sunday and part of Monday. W still says she's NC w/ OM "for a bit" bc it's "clouding things" right now. Assuming that's a lie and this weekend it'll be interesting to see what she does. Gut tells me she goes.
Trying to set myself up not to be hurt again like the past 2 times she's done this. Going to be tough if she does go, but my goal is indifference upon her getting back. At this point though I need to figure out consequences for this stuff. Too much cake eating and taking advantage of me. Getting ridiculous.
Sending my team home from work early on this holiday Friday. I'll cover this place until 5pm then hit the gym and head home. Unsure what the weekend will bring but my focus is on D and myself. WW is becoming less and less of a burden on my soul, but she has her moments. Almost feels like the lull before the storm right now. We'll see.
MV, cheesyt, fade, appreciate ya'lls support and thoughts! Please, as always, feel free to tell me when I'm being blind/stupid/oblivious! Thanks to everyone!
Me39 M11 : T13 D9 BD 5/31/16 In House S until 6/21/17 Divorced 10/5/18
