Taking my first sip of the water

[ATPeace]

Hi ok so I put together a lengthy reply and for one reason or another it did not save it so here goes again not sure if it will be the same but anyway ....

I have been watching the ted talk YouTube and they do make sence I just feel that it is going to be a very lengthy process for me to move in any direction I have been looking for ted talk that might inspire me

So I am stuck here because I am not willing to move on forwards and I am not sure what it is going to take for me to actually get off my ass and do something ... I realise I need to do something as right now nothing works a changing for the better and I have been feeling extreemly unhappy

My W is still full of resentiment and anger mainly towards me and her moods and how she snaps at everyone is starting to break me down today I actually started to feel dislike towards her and I had momentary feelings of I am actually done with this

I am a good man and my W has made me feel like [censored]
I love my children and I realise it has been a long time since I have been happy

I still want to stand for our marriage and I will become the best person that I can however it is starting to get to the point where I have to bite my lip as
I can see animosity building between the two of us sometimes

I will check back in again later

Thank you for sticking with me I will get through this one way or another