I have changed all my passwords to the computer, phone, credit cards again just to make sure. I hid my DR book in a different place. I am clearing all history on computer/phone when done. I am also going to make sure I don't lay my phone down when she is around. I will keep it with me at all times.
I definitely feel she was trying to turn the tables on me when she started accusing me of hiding stuff. That's why I asked her to talk about it later, but she just followed me and kept talking. I know she is scared and I won't be shocked if she stops her EA for a little while, but then starts back up. I have my guard up, as far as I am concerned nothing has changed today on the way I'm going to live my life. I am going to work on detaching and if she really ends her EA and makes a genuine effort to try to work things out then I will listen, but I know that will take a lot of time. She would also have to come clean with everything that has went on. She would need to give me her passwords to her accounts and I would have to know she is seeking help and trying. We are a long way from that I think right now.
Also, I have thought about a job. I used to do some work in my spare time a few years ago before my 2nd S was born. It was basically a hobby at the time but I earned decent money doing it. I quit once the 2nd S was born because I was taking care of two, but I might start back up again. It really wouldn't be something I would make a career doing, but it would give me extra money and also help me with detachment and GAL.
This weekend I am going to continue to detach for me. If she wants to talk I will, but she has to be the one to initiate it.
M39, W36 T12, M10 S6,S2 Discovered EA 8/8 that started 7/31
