Years later, I miss his laugh, his sense of fun, his touch. I'm being honest here. I'm living my life but if I could choose I'd much prefer if he was still in it.
Stacey, it's ok to miss those things. But do you miss the way he abandoned you, the way he cheated, the way he's been playing you lately? See it all, look at the whole package, and decide if you want all that back. I'm guessing not.
I told MB earlier this week I had been chasing a fantasy, meaning I was focusing on the good parts of someone while ignoring some pretty key negative elements. It's easy to do. But it doesn't make the bad go away just because I ignore it. I've chosen to move on to get a total package I can live with.