Cherry, h is filing. Working on me

[Cherry]

Thank you all for the support. It means so much to me to have you guys here so when I feel a bit down. Rather than spew at him, I can document it here and get it out and seek advice and support.

Did I indicate that I was wanting to move? If I did I mustn't have wrote something clearly, or I was having a moment. I'm not planning on leaving the house, as painful as it can be knowing he is looking to do that, he can move for sure. Wrt him moving, I go through two kind of emotions. On the one side, it hurts, it feels like the end of an era, that it is the end and there's the chance he may never come back. And on the other side, I feel like I would be more relaxed as there isn't the risk of constantly bumping into him and being reminded of him. For example when he gets dressed to go out, and I admit I do physically find him attractive- I know other women will think that too. So it's just a bit painful to see that and then when he leaves, thinking where is he going dressed like that. Or the fact that he only returned at 2am this morning home from work. If he isn't in the house, I will be oblivious to this behaviour. And there is the chance that he will start realising the consequences of his actions faster if he is left to fend for himself!

You are all right, she has got the prize of a bad man. A liar, a cheat, a manipulator, a man with no values, a man with no respect. A lousy father, an even worse h, and a man who his own mother is ashamed of. And yes, if when I met him I had heard any of these things about him- and if I found out he had a w that he was planning on leaving who is pregnant with his child. I would have ran for the hills. That is not the kind of man I would be attracted to. What I liked about him was his values, and that it seemed to me that his morals and values matched with mine, that m is for life and that no matter what, family comes first.