Very up and down week but I was thinking more positive overall. Then today we each had counseling spots and he said he had some ah ha moments he needed to think about before he shared with me. He's gone off to think and reflect right now

Why is my first reaction always panic? Such fatalistic thinking that it's all about to end and he will announce his decision.
I'm so worn down I will just agree and be done.

Have to wait two weeks now before we decide if I need another biopsy.
I have too much on my plate and I am wanting some of it resolved just either way.

Me54 WH48
S18 D16
M 22 T 24
EA-PA-EA 2011-2015
Separated 10/14 - 06/15
BD1 02/14
BD2 05/16
BD3 08/21/16 and began drinking again
Working on me and liking me again