(Terry Jones): I think she's dead.

[LoisB]

Feeling a little weirded out. I've had a lot of interaction with Matt this week and it just feels strange after so much no contact. He initiated three text conversations. He also ended the conversations and I took his cue and didn't respond.

A strange feeling. I don't see any real movement, except the fact he reached out to me three times. But, it's his "thing" to reach out on holidays. I don't know. I was honest, but not offensive.

At one point, he thanked me for posting FB pics of Louisa on her birthday. He caught me at a moment when I was feeling upset about Louisa's lack of birthday wishes from her grandparents. Nothing from my mother, except on my FB account. An empty card from my dad and nada from Matt's parents. I was talking to a friend about my frustration, when he texted me.

Matt hasn't seen her in several years. I commented that I was feeling angry that she has three affluent sets of grandparents and she only received one card from one set, and no gifts. I think that's crappy. She's 14 and hasn't done anything to deserve being treated like that.

Matt was actually pretty supportive. When he asked which parents, I was honest and said that his parents haven't acknowledged Louisa in several years and it was my dad, on his return from wine tasting in the Napa Valley, who only sent an empty card.

I vented to him. I guess that's part of what feels weird. I vented to him and I haven't in so long. I did say that maybe it's not so bad. Louisa doesn't get the gifts Cal got growing up, but she also doesn't have to deal insanity--and I included Matt in that. He said he understood and wrapped up the convo--which was good. I was feeling emotional and tired and coulda said something much worse.

I took the cue. Got myself something to eat. Calmed down. Feeling a bit better, but still sorta weird for getting honest with this alien person and saying maybe a bit too much than I needed to. Exposed myself.