Out of in house S - On My Own (11)

[vise82]

Hey

Had the kids last night and also went over to W house to pick up a mattress for S7. So I got to see inside her house the 2nd floor her room. Just acted like I would if I bought something off of a classified for sale ad. Was in and out. On the way out the driveway is on a hill and my vehicle ran out of gas. It was embarrassing. Money has been tight for me and I was not putting in as much fuel as I used to.

Also at this time her neighbor comes out to walk the dog. He is a bodybuilder, W and him exchange hellos. This got to me. I put my vehicle in neutral and rolled out of her driveway onto the street trying to start the engine, finally after 5 tries it starts and I was out of there.

On the way to the gas station and the kids with me I thought to myself all she is to me is an old sweater, one that doesn't fit me anymore, is not comfortable anymore, I don't like the color and I don't wear anymore. Not needed.

She is an old sweater to me now.

Spent the rest of the night setting up the boys rooms moving their furniture around they best way they liked. Then put them to bed. I think they really liked the attention I was giving to there rooms. I tell them this is their space and its a place they can go to just be by themselves and relax and be alone if they want. A place to feel safe that is all their own.