I appreciate the comments and advice. I may be wrong but I think by telling her I feel last night I have a better idea of what direction I need to go. Before I wasn't sure if I should walk away and detach because one of her big complaints about me was that I didn't want to be around her or I didn't appreciate her enough. So I have been torn if detaching from her was the best approach because I felt that I would be doing the same thing as I always did. I have been moving back and forth between detaching and being her friend and acting normal. Now I think she knows my position and she knows how I feel so I think it will be easier for me to leave her be and detach. I guess I'm hoping she understands my position better now and I can go on with my life and working to improve without her feeling I'm neglecting her.
I am going to read DR again starting today. I feel like I am starting all over, but maybe I will have a better understanding of the direction I need to go.
Hey Eagle...
I think that you are trying to put too much pressure on yourself, AND her right now...
You are sitting back and allowing HER to make YOUR decisions...
You are giving her, way too much of your power in this chess match, that really isn't , or shouldn't be one.
She knows where you stand, and it's time for you to move FORWARD from this situation...
And when I say moving forward, I do not mean moving on...
Moving forward for you, means that you delve within yourself, take care of you and your issues, and you live your life according to you. You don't look in the rear-view mirror to see where she is..
Kids need you, Friends need you, Family needs you...
