Thank you for the kind words and the ((hug)) I really appreciate it.
I just arrived at work after a Dr's apt and a very long drive and have some catching up to do. To be honest, I am not really with it right now.
I think you are correct in what you've heard about emotional pain. I have never experienced the death of a child and pray we never have to experience such a tragedy. I will say this is easily the most painful experience of my life since my father passed. I think because of the betrayal it is even more traumatizing.
When someone dies, you know it's the end and you will never see them again on this earth. But when they died and before they left us for good they were kind to you, they were close to you, they did not call you names, they did not lie to you, they did not deceive you, they did not flaunt their disrespect of you, they don't tell all your mutual friends how terrible of a person you are, they don't try to sway your children to disrespect you and lastly they don't betray you. At least in my experience with losing someone to death there was never a toxic parting of ways.
I will continue to check in as the day progresses.
ROE
ROE 48/WW 49 M24 Childrenx4 BD1 Jan 2016 EA/OM conf'd by WW : BD2 Apr 2016 WW wants S : BD3 May 2016 WW wants D Oct - Separated Dec - PA confirmed Jan 2017 - I file for D / Enough is Enough