Since the BD mid 2014 up until the last 6 months I really was not in any state to try and GAL, looking back it was like living in tornado, I just needed time, being apart of this community most definitely speeds up the process. If anything I should have been in a psych ward in respite care...seriously! No golf happening back then.
Letting go was key for me.
Spend lots of time with my younger son when he is home with me- bike rides, kicking the footy down the park, walks, movies, bbq's. Older S is harder to pin down, at 19 he has so much going on with his mates, I don't mind too much, just happy to see him happy, even know he's down stairs with friends on the PS4 and they are laughing so much, I love it. Just hope I can get some sleep with all the noise!
The thing with older son is he will always choose to do something with dad if I ask him.
Father's Day this Sunday so looking forward to that.
I'm blessed with the best bunch of mates you can ask for, some just make me laugh a lot and others are just so wise. Before the bomb I was the encourager, the one checking up on friends that were going through a hard time, for so long I had nothing to give, my pain was so intense that most days I was in a robotic sort of state...empty shell. Life is coming back to these dry bones.
Just being able to think about others again...to think "I better give so and so a call and see how his sons b/ball game went" is so awesome. To finally be able to remove this "big thing" that has been constantly in front of my nose, put it aside from time to time and do/think other things.
So happy it's the last day of winter.. So much I want to do around the house..wanted to do in warmer weather. That should keep me busy.
