All of my stuff I want to learn really involves my love of homesteading and continuing my goal of being mostly self sufficient...
But I will work on making a bucket list.
Today, in terms of emotions and thoughts, has actually been the best day since the BD 4 weeks ago. I am feeling a sense of relief that she is moving out. I guess that sounds wrong, but I am also really enjoying the idea of not having a slob living with me that I have to go around and clean up after (besides my children...who I am training quite well)...and I am by no means a neat freak, but there is a certain level of basic cleanliness that is needed for me to feel comfortable and calm in my environment. She has never been willing to meet me halfway on that.
I am also enjoying the idea of being able to expand my microfarm and add some goats and guinea fowl. She said NO to both.
Also, thinking about how much less money (once debt is paid) I am going to have to shell out to support her career in hair, her car payment, HEALTH INSURANCE!! OMG, $350 a month for her - I am free through my employer.
I am now starting to think what exactly I found to be so terrific about her. Yes, we had fun together...but there has been a ton of turmoil in this relationship. I am nowhere near without blame...but as DB says, PERSON A does this, PERSON B reacts, PERSON A reacts to that, PERSON B reacts to that reaction and so on...
She brought a ton of baggage into the relationship and now that I look back, I was soooo stupid to propose as quickly as I did. I don't regret it however, because it led to us getting these kids and I wouldn't change that for the world.
