Pink I don't have anything spectacular to add, Job and Jack3Beans gave amazing replies. However I just wanted to say that reading your latest posts I feel like I'm reading something that I wrote. I feel the same way about my H, clutching at straws instead of keeping my expectations low, and trying so hard to stay dark. I'm on week two of minimum contact and it is killing me. However I'm using the time to reflect on my issues and the part they played in my H's anger, MLC, and even his EA with my friend. Like you, I would do anything to put this hellish period behind me. I know we still have a long way to go though.
Jack3Beans, funny you mentioned that you would prefer being the LBS than the MLCer. I was thinking the same a couple of days ago. How horrible it must be going though a MLC and rewriting history and becoming a selfish person that cares for no one but themselves. No sorry, not for me. As a LBS I got the opportunity to review my life and grow and improve. I can show my kids how to fight and hopefully I can keep learning about myself and life and H every day. H is in his own world, deep in his fog.
"There's nothing sadder than a conman conning himself"
“There is freedom waiting for you, On the breezes of the sky, And you ask "What if I fall?" Oh but my darling, What if you fly?”
