Cherry, h is filing. Working on me

[Surfer]

Cherry,

Don't worry about documenting this. It's worthless. It's NOT a blame game. You know this.

Just make sure your S feels loved. You do this, I know, fill the gaps he leaves. I want to call you H out but it's not the right thing to do.

All I can say is that YOUR feelings for him right now are holding YOU and your S back. I know this because I have lived pretty much exactly your life. I feel your pain and it is horrible. Please detach. Do you even know how to do this? Either you do and you are not, because the addiction of him is too strong, or you don't. Which is it Cherry?

Surfer.