Terrified, because I'm trusting him and that is scary. Because I worry I love more. Because I worry that I'll get my heart smashed again. Because I worry that I'm not seeing him clearly -- that he's not the person I'm giving him credit for being. Terrified because I don't really know how to be in a relationship and I'm afraid of messing it up.
Smitten, because he treats me better than I've ever been treated before. Because my family seems to work better when he's around -- I'm more structured, the kids are engaged, everything is just generally calmer.
I wish I had a crystal ball. And telepathy (sometimes). I wish I was braver, and maybe that he was too.
Surfer, I don't know that I understand myself well enough to be in control of me. The things that terrify me I don't believe I control.
Vanilla, we've been together 8 months. A little more than that since I met him.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
