The good news is, you actually got some good information here.
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XH - It's amazing how you will always remember how things ended. You will never remember that you were the one that left much earlier, that for years you didn't love me anymore and was out of the R.
THAT is how he feels. whether or not you believe it to be true...it is true to him. And THAT will have to be addressed if you guys work toward being together.
So...good, information. Bad, relationship talk.
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but in the same time I have this fear that if I let go then my love for him will disappear.
Like tomorrow? Nah, it won't disappear. Not in this time frame, if it went away quickly I'd be more concerned over you.
Letting go, is to protect you and your sanity, its not that you don't care, you will and do, its not immersing yourself in his drama, his crazy, its getting out of that...
Do you have any crazy neighbors? When they fight are you sort of glad that it doesn't involve you that you're not a part of it? Sort of wish they'd just shut up?
Remember the drama in high school?
Its sort of like that. You protect yourself by not being around it.
I make it sound so easy don't I? It's not, but it gets easier with time, even with set backs.
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK
