Yeah, I just can't help but feeling that I'm suddenly doing everything wrong.

Like it seemed like it was working and we moved forward a little and then all the sudden we lost all the ground we gained and now it's like the beginning all over again.

It just makes me feel like I'm messing something up. I know in the beginning I seriously avoided contact with her and I think that did peak her interest... maybe I just need to go back to that? I don't know.

I seriously feel like 98% of the time I don't have a clue. I KNOW beyond a doubt something was happening in her head about us I just don't know what...I wish she could just get her life together and figure it out and come out of this fog and if she still wanted the D fine but I seriously feel like she's going to wake up one day and have like a "wtf did I do" moment and then never tell me because she's so stubborn and hates admitting when she's wrong and made a mistake.

So frustrating

W:32 M:26
T:5 yrs M: 3 yr
BD: JUN 2016
W Moved out: early JUL 2016
W Filed for D: mid JUL 2016
EA: 06/16?
PA: 07/16
Moved in w/ ow: 07/16
D final: 10/16