Exactly right, Cherry. Let it out. You are grieving and the worst thing you can do right now is to bottle up that pain. WH doesn't deserve to witness your vulnerability, but when you are out of his sight, just let it out.

((((((Cherry))))))

H: 44, Me: 45
Married: 20 y Together: 25 y
no kids
Walk away: 12/15
Asked for temp separation 12/25/15
PA confirmed 3/16 (apparently neither the first, nor the last PA he has had)
H filed for D 5/16