Cherry, h is filing. Working on me

[Cherry]

So I asked him today if he could look after s a while so I can get some things done. He said he would. He then asks for the m certificate, I know he needs this to file. So I said what for, he just ignored me. He didn't even look at me once.

He's just so cold, he's moving full pelt with this and before I know it, I'll be d. He hasn't even moved out and it just seems as though his priority is the d. I know this is so he can do what he likes and feel guilt free.

I don't know how to be in his company. I was upbeat for the few seconds he saw me, but he couldn't even look at me. He's just so shameless. Doing whatever the hell he likes. I went to my room and I've closed the door so I can cry a few tears. I'm contemplating taking the photos of me and him down. I just feel like that part of my life has been a lie, or as though it didn't even happen. He tells me that he is probably going to be there at my scan, that just feels rather bitter sweet, like he's going to be there because he feels obliged to, not because he wants to be.

I know I need to pull myself back up, and I will. And I'll have a pamper or go out for a while. But right now I just need to let this pain out and not bottle it up.