Cherry, h is filing. Working on me

[Cherry]

Today has been much of the same. Saw wh briefly this morning as he went to spend the day "out with friends". The second he leaves, I deal with the toddler meltdown of "daddy's gone", I can't get angry when he starts having these tantrums as I know it's just his way of showing his emotions. Quite a day of throwing up non stop so we stayed home. Wh wasn't home by evening so made food for S and put him to bed. Once again we had tears of "daddy's gone". When I voiced my concerns about this to him again recently, it got with "well what's he going to do when I move". That I don't know, but he is not concerned, it will be something I will have to try and navigate through- I'm just not quite sure how. Put S to bed, and now all I want to do is be sick. It's hard to try and appear im holding things together and appear confident and happy, when sat on the bathroom floor with zero energy, and just wanting to curl up for a very long time. Okay, I know I'm having a pity party right now- but some days are just really hard to get through whilst holding it together for my s. I know single moms do this all the time, all I can say is I have big respect for keeping things together when working through a high risk pregnancy with a toddler and no father figure around