Learning, growing and believing....

[mleigh4]

Thanks HW, this ordeal has made me appreciate life more than ever. In fact, I caught myself telling S last night, life is a gift we are given, we need to appreciate it and live it to the fullest.

2T, you hit it on the head. After each low I go through, I come out feeling stronger and seeing things clearer. It's a good thing.

Not too much to update here. I had a very busy week. Friend over on Tuesday night. She joined S and I for dinner, S got a little....jealous? He doesn't really like sharing my attention. After she left, I explained to him that she was home alone, doesn't like to be alone, and wanted to be with us, and how it's important to be a good friend. I hope that helps him.

Wed night was open house at S school. I reminded H, as last time he was a no show, he said he would be there. This is when the teacher goes over the curriculum and what she expects from us in regards to homework and projects. H was writing notes like crazy, it was cute. He was very attentive and serious, it should help me with staying on top of S work. He also made sure the teacher had his email, so he stays in the loop. Meanwhile, S had a blast playing with his buddies outside. He was dripping sweat when we were done, which was wonderful to see since he is a computer kid. When leaving, I felt a bit of a cold shoulder from H. He gave S a big hug, turned and left with no bye to me. It actually reminded me of myself back at the start of all this. I just shrugged it off.

We learned about a fundraiser, the kids get pledges and run laps. S is super excited as he loves running. He already has his goal set and I reached out to the grandparents to help him reach it.

The next day, as I was leaving work, I get TM from H. "Dinner tomorrow or Saturday?" I was totally confused. Did he mean all of us? Did he mean just us? Did he want to have "the D talk?" He had been so cold the night before.....then I thought, that wasn't meant for me. I figured he must have mistakenly sent it to me. I really did! It made no sense for the place we are at this point, so being confused, I didn't answer. My actions no longer revolve around being to fix my marriage, I have let that go.

That night, I had a group meeting with city council and neighbors. we are still working on slowing down traffic on our street. I spoke up with some combined solutions, as everyone was arguing their case, and we agreed combined tactics would work best. I was so proud of myself for speaking up in front of everyone! I also met a new neighbor down the street and we exchanged numbers to set a date for wine and food. She has a beautiful home, really decorated cute in front, and she had approached me saying she knows my SIL, and SIL has been wanting us to meet. It was a good night.

Friday back to work, busy end of month. I decided to make this a cooking weekend to try out some new things with S, and ran by the store for ingredients. Carnitas, pizza and homemade meatballs on the menu for the weekend! FIL called, he is very confused about the fundraiser, doesn't want S to push himself too hard and hurt himself, then started in asking what he is doing to train, and is he training or just playing on the computer!? The negativity coming through my phone was overbearing, seriously guys, his poor kids. But I laughed it off, told him it's not a triathlon, just a fundraiser to gain pledges for each lap and S was ready to do his best which is all we ask. I told him the funds raised go directly to his class and everyone is really excited about it. He backed off, said ok, and ended up pledging a boatload per lap. S is at his goal!

Saturday we just stayed home. Did some housework, watched movies, made my carnitas which were ok. That night, S and I were watching Free Willy, I cried and he laughed at me like usual, and H TM. It said, "ok? A simple no would have worked too..." well, I guess it WAS meant for me. Oops. I responded the truth. "Sorry, I didn't think it was meant for me". He replied "um, ok?"

I declared Sunday a get out of the house day with S. I really do want to find a balance for him between technology and nature. So I replied back, let H know, and said I can let him know what we plan? He replied with a big happy face. We will see what transpires today.

So, they just love to throw those curve balls, yes? Not sure what the dinner invite was about, But I am still on track. He may have felt bad about the cold shoulder and wanted some family time, which is fine since we all enjoy it.

Hope you are all enjoying your weekend and have a good week!