Taking my first sip of the water

[SH_]

Thank you for posting RAI I do have to keep myself More positive I am very negative

So I have today spent a really lovely day out in London with two of' my children and my W said we get along so much better when we are out the house

I suppose one of my biggest fears is us getting along well but her not willing to work at a new marriage and then she meets and falls in love with someone else

Now I realise this may happen I just wish she would see how well we got along today and then want to work on it how can I do this when I cannot have conversations

Thank you
Ghost

G,

There you go again using that "F" word.
What have we discussed about that?

You have done 2 things in this post that you have been told not to, over and over again.
You believe what she says.
And you have predicted a future based on her actions.
What has this ever benefited you other that to throw a pity party for yourself?

G, have you see an IC about your low self esteem?
Have you inquired from a professional about a depressive disorder?
Please share with me on this.
I really think some professional guidance is in order.

I want to apologize for not being here as I took a short break and am working out some of my issues, but I am still checking in on you.

I see you have gotten into some of the homework.
This post leads me to perceive you may be struggling to apply it.
What are your updates with reviewing the homework?
What are your updates with applying the homework?
Updates for taking some action?

PS,
She won't realize there is anything to work on if you don't get the work on you done first.
This I will continue to smack into your head with the sledgehammer until it sticks. (You have become immune to the 2x4's, so something a bit stronger is needed to get you moving along)

I would also like to hear one thing that you have sought out on your own to study, review and apply to your own life.
You gotta be invested in this to make it work.

I'm checking on you G, we are gonna push you on through.