What should I be doing (Working toward D 9)

[Coconut]

Things have been going better, I've really committed to stop being angry, it's not her fault (or responsibility) for how I feel, I need to own that responsibility and stop blaming her. I don't think I'll ever understand why she has done everything she's done, but I want to forgive.

In no means am I trying to buddy up with her, but I made her a cup of coffee this morning, and for the first time in a month we sat in the same room and conversed (nothing serious, just chit chat) and my son looked very confused lol... Anyway, when son took off, I did give her a heart felt apology for the other night when I was drunk and that I didn't like the me that I saw that night (there was no physical but I did throw her phone in an attempt to break it and was very mean verbally and by text). I think back through my life and I don't remember ever really being angry at anyone, I mean really angry, sure I haven liked things people did and have had my fair share of fights, but I've never really had to learn how to deal with anger before. But never too late to learn.