Zoo and the City. Is that the one where Sarah Jessica Parker pukes in the bushes?? Oh dear, you must be feeling rough, sorry I just had to put something a bit amusing on your post (even though bad taste - sorry)!
The flashbacks are hard. Had them a lot, they take a while but they do go. It becomes more of a "'oh yeah' I remember that" - in a nice way, a bit sad but not horrid like it probably is now. So that will pass - it if it has to.
I am trying to get myself into a place where either way (together or apart) I am happy. I have to be honest with you Cherry this takes time and being apart is the one thing that helps. No contact. But if you keep seeing him, then you will have the constant reminder. Any if you are only getting spew its doubly hard. I feel so sorry for you on this point in particular. I remember this part keenly and I know how you feel - when I was living in the same house, separate rooms for over 2 years - it hurt. She looked like she was mentally ill, I felt like I was. It was horrendous. However, it does get better. You will feel better and you will be happy again with or without him. Stay on track.
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