Major work on the house completed (boiler moved and replaced. Old water tank removed). Three days of workmen in my house.
I can now start with the moving things back and carrying on with the big sorting out.
My temp job is going really well. It's been fantastic for my self esteem. I have just over two weeks left now.
It's been nice to earn a little money too, so I treated myself to some end of sale bargains (clothes and shoes). Also bought some new lipsticks.
I'm feeling really good at the moment. I have lots to fill my life and time with, including some very lovely friends and people I have become close to since October. I'm not missing WH/STBXH at all now.
The M? The closeness we had? The things we shared over the years? Yeah, I guess I still miss all of those things. But the M is gone now, as he is gone. And I wouldn't even know who he is now...a stranger as far as I can see.
The only difficult thing I had to deal with last week was that I'm still running into people who have no idea what's happened. So they ask me how I am, what I've been up to and what H has been up to.
And I tell them in the most neutral way possible that we've separated, whilst at the same time acknowledging that it was his decision and not mine ('he decided that he wanted to do his own thing').
And then I talk about a few of the things I've done with my life since in a very positive and passionate way, so that they go away with the impression that I'm moving forward with my own life.
It's not hard to do, I'm genuinely grateful for the people I've met, the opportunities I've had and what I've done, so it's easy to be positive and passionate about them all. I just have to try and tap into that side of myself when I'm in that particular situation.
