Cherry, h is filing. Working on me

[Cherry]

Guys I thank you all for your support, even if it's to let me know you understand this pain, it's nice to speak honestly to people.

CT, welcome I'll be honest, I'm rather gender neutral when I read these posts. Some of the things the wh &ww's make me wonder what is happening to humanity in general.

Today I got up to take s on a day out with my parents. Off to the zoo and the city. I did try my best to smile and have fun (while being sick in the bush). But those stabbing horrible feelings of memories of my and h going there before we were married, holding hands and kissing. It's like one of those painful flashback scenes from a movie, like a car crash. With me closing my eyes tighter to shut it out.

I haven't seen him, and I doubt I will today, by the time we get back he will most probably of gone out for the evening. I'm getting by but the pain is strong the past couple days. I think reality has set in to my head that he had really gone this time.