sometimes, when things are at the worst, it seems to take more courage than we possess in that moment to continue. those are the times when I find that all I can do is just focus on the moment and my breathing. you cannot change the past. the future is unwritten. you have options but right now, in this moment, as you read this, you really only have to concentrate on your next breath in and then a slow exhale out. if you can do that a few times in a row, only focusing on your breathing, you will feel a bit calmer and more centered, I promise.

You've listed a couple of excellent reasons to hang in there: your girls are counting on you.

I know it's hard, believe me. One thing I've learned through this nightmare is that we are not alone. There are good people here, supporting each other and sharing their struggles and eventual triumphs.

Yes, It will get better for you. Those moments will become hours and then days, weeks, months. But today, all you have to do is breathe.

xoxoxo

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver