Apology as an offense... I like that.

But I'm discouraged. She just seems so damn far gone. Beyond reason. And even if she were to become, magically, a reasonable person, I feel like whatever pool of love and affection she had for me at one point has all dried up during this divorce process, and now we're like this weird ... emotional strangers who share kids and a history. She really did a damn good job leaving me emotionally. She left nothing behind for me to hold on to.

I want to give up, for me. But I can't, for my kids. Hope to feel better tomorrow, somehow.


Me: 50, MLC/WW 45
Young kids
Nov 2015: BD1
Apr 2016: BD2
Jan 2017: W filed
Feb 2017: D final