Sounds like some sound advice Gump. Don't beat yourself up about it too much. You are only human and in situations like this every word or sentence seems to get magnified. You are dealing with some tough emotions so give yourself a break if you do backslide every now and again...

Me - 47
H - 45
D-16
M - 6 years
Separated - May 16

Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')