As a side note, I would seriously consider changing your member name here. Don't reflect how you are now, let it be a reflection of how you are going to be. Make that a goal. Sometimes that little change can start empowering you.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.