Today isn't a good day, I'm questioning my own actions again and doubting myself. H decided to come home on time today and even decided he would sit and eat with us. I said hello to him, but I couldn't muster any polite chat, not even neighbourly. I couldn't manage a how was your day, I felt I'd be a fraud. I know things are bleak looking, but I still would like to keep my family together and know that I need to "act as if". But I just couldn't quite muster up that act. Just so tired and feeling so lame that I just didn't quite feel as though I had the energy to try today.
This is not easy.
How much I wish it was easy Cherry! I get it, it's hard to carry on like these things don't matter to us day after day. You'd have to be superwoman to not have off days. All we can do is put our heads down and do the best we can to keep pushing forward.
Hope you start to feel better and get over your cold/sickness! You really are doing a good job, don't be down on yourself for one bad day!
Me39 M11 : T13 D9 BD 5/31/16 In House S until 6/21/17 Divorced 10/5/18