Congratulations on the promotion! The cost of living should be less than in NY...correct? You're paycheck will soon be back up to what it was in NY.
Don't second guess yourself....you are stronger than you think. Keep moving forward!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.