I feel as if the pit is less frequent and I am starting to come to grips with my life not including her in the future. I love her deeply but I also have serious concerns about our future should we reconcile. I guess that is cause for worry later on.
I understand. But, if you were to reconcile, I'm sure there are stipulations (boundaries) that you'd want to put in place. Now is the time to start that process even if you don't reconcile.
anything you can recommend reading for boundaries besides the thread that Cadet first replied to me with?