I have been very busy and kind of stressed out lately. Just too many things to do and not much time to get it done. So I think my head does not think straight sometimes.
Just like you all said, my XH was all forward and lovely one weekend and then was distant the next. The difference now is that he seems to like to be around even when distant. He seems to enjoy seeing me, like he admires me more now.
Well, by my side it hurts. It is all unsafe area, all unsure and it [censored]. Last Monday, he called and was all happy and talking about our kid that went to college. Our younger one went on a out of state football trip and he said that we could go together to pick him up at the airport.
I said that he doesn't need to do that since he lives far from me and he explained a lot to convince me that it won't be a problem.
It seems silly to ask for help on this. But, part of me says I need to just agree and enjoy the ride. And part of me keep thinking that he just accommodated things because he doesn't want that both of us drive to pick up the kid and put him into an awkward situation on choosing which parent he rides home with.
I don't know what to do, it became comfortable for me to just avoid him and be on my own life. But, I still think that we may have a chance and I still love him.
It is so hard... I feel I just want to move far, far away and try to forget it all. But I also know I will be moving with myself and it won't resolve anything.
Sorry for being a taker... I always look for help but I am not giving any. I feel kind of pathetic to tell people what they might do when I don't know what do in my own life.
Thanks to all that always look after me, you are all amazing people.
