What should I be doing (Working toward D 9)

[cbtdad]

Forgiveness and triggers are two different things in my opinion
You can forgive her, but you are still going to have things that trigger you for a long long time
And yes, drinking certainly does not help. I remember some of the ugliest fights my W and I had when we reconciled was when I was or we both were drinking
A trigger would happen and boom, game one
It's taken me 3 years to really get over my W's infidelity.
I remember when I use to think I was over it and then boom, a trigger
It's going to take time. Don't beat yourself up over it
Stay the course and keep working on you