I hope you come and post. I see a lot of me in YOU and I believe that you will gain a lot from these boards.
If you decide not to return, I hope you find some support to help you through this process (it is really tough to do this alone).
I know that for me, these boards were a life saver. I did not like a lot of the things that were pointed out to me and honestly, I can you tell you a story of wanting to fly to another state to beat up one of the posters (I can laugh at it now). I am now very good friend with this person.
These boards really helped me and I think they can really help you.
So if you are up for it....come back...say HI Eric and let's start a conversation. No judging, no hard feelings...just a two dudes shooting the chit on a web site.
Peace, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans