What should I be doing (Working toward D 9)

[Coconut]

(((WONKA))), I'm so sorry to hear about your family, praying for a full and quick recovery.

Overall I have been doing pretty good, but I still am struggling with my anger, and my reaction to triggers. I'm not sure why, but I decided to drink last night, and I drank pretty heavy. It was fine until I saw a trigger, and being drunk and angry was not a good combo. I have never been a mean drunk, but I was last night and can't say enough how ashamed I am. I haven't been drinking much, but I've decided that I will not drink again until I have found peace, because I don't want to put myself or my WW through that again.

I'm going to IC to help with the anger, but it's going to take time. what's messed up is that earlier in the day, I really thought I was getting closer to a place of forgiveness, but obviously not so if triggers so easily put me back in a bad place.