WAW, bouts of anger still spewing, awaiting the D.

[roist]

Welcome back. Beneath all the .... ramblings and moans, I hear an undeniable envy to better yourself. That will shine through and help you do the necessary.

You have pointed out some stuff you question about yourself.The withdrawal. This is an inbuilt mechanism that you have surely enhanced and strengthened throughout your life. It is automatic. Realising it is not helping you is the first step to breaking this habit. But to override this programming will take consistent effort, but it can be done.

I would not be hard on yourself for wanting to help others here. By the way here you cannot be Mr Fixit, because everyone here came here for help and to grow. When you need to focus on you, you will. If you want to distract yourself then why not help others in doing so.

As for my suggestion, it is just that a suggestion.It is also something that will take time and effort. When you are ready, it will still be there. It is easy and unhelpful to procrastinate but so too is pressurising yourself to do something. When you are ready, I am confident you will do the necessary to succeed.

Lastly, maybe there is a divorce group in your area where you can find support until your own network is rebuilt.