She's gone. Living in the now.

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I know I can't do anything to change things and I have to live my own life but it really saddens me to think that W is happier now without us.

How do you know she is happier now?

She may be relieved she isn't dealing with the conflict. She may be experiencing a rush of pleasures of the flesh denied during her commitment to you. She may be full of hope that things will be better for her. But she might also be conflicted, mourning, confused, and horrified with her loss.

What I found is that as the time and emotional distance between me and XW grew, more of what I *thought* she might be feeling was mindreading and projection. She may be happier now. She may not be. I have no idea. But I have no reason to conclude how she feels and feel bad about it.

Good to hear from you, you're holding up strong. Thanks for checking in.