Out of in house S - On My Own (11)

[rich4j]

I have been feeling the need to let go. To move forward. its not even about trying to save the MR anymore, its about saving me.

I think you answered your own questions with the above. If you are struggling with the interactions then you have to do what you feel YOU need to in order to detach or maybe that is not the right word....distance yourself from her

Earlier on with these forums I could not understand how not interacting and engaging with the WAH/WAW would make sense. As its counter intuitive to your being. But....when the ice is still frozen around their hearts....there is no melting it per se. So just skate away for now.

its tough. especially with kids and having to constantly interact. I just had a blow up about one last week of camp with STBX where I went from totaly missing her to again wanting nothing to do with her. It brought up all the reasons why we have both had issues with each other. Wound back open

To Keep healing I think you know what you need to do. Best...