The Woman is Pure Evil

[RDS]

A link to when I still had hope

I was a fool for thinking there was any way I could get this marriage to work. I just got back from court and I feel like I’m a criminal. I knew I was going to get screwed by the court because I make more money than my wife and she says she can’t work. She came into court without her pain medication so she was in obvious pain and I know the judge (a woman) took some pity on her.

The court also thinks I lied on my financial declaration because my yearly gross doesn’t match my monthly gross. I tried to explain to my L (the judge wouldn’t let me speak) why the discrepancy. My L didn’t explain it clearly enough and the Judge already seemed to have made up her mind anyway. The discrepancy in my pay was for work I did in November and December of last year and after countless payroll screw ups I got a lump sum in January. It’s not money I can count on but somehow the judge thinks I was hiding that money. My W can now live in luxury while I’m stuck holding the bag for everything. My W can quit her meager job and still be very comfortable while everything I’ve worked for over the years is gone. I cannot even continue to pay for my IC. I cannot afford to pay my credit card bills and I will have to sell my house ASAP to get out from under the mortgage.

The reason I know my M is over is how vindictive my W is. She used EVERYTHING against me. The letter I wrote to her after she left me she submitted in her affidavit. Even the apology letter my DB coach suggested I send to her she used in her affidavit about how I admitted I was wrong about our relationship.

It seems all my DB actions have backfired. It seems my W’s actions were extremely manipulative. I loved my W dearly, but after what happened today I cannot see a future together. I can't understand how she would go for the jugular like she did and how the judicial system ate it up. I could go on about crushed I feel, but I just don’t have it in me.

The way I feel now I can understand how people give up on life after dealing with a blow like this. I’ve never thought of hitting a woman, but I know for a fact if I saw her right now I would be thrown in jail because there is no telling what I would do to her. Being civil and cordial, working on GAL...she used it all against me.

My W even had the gall to say how nice I looked before we walked into the courtroom. She knew I was about to get slaughtered.

I just do not understand a judicial system that allows one party to lose half their money and still be required to pay everything when the other party doesn't have to lift a finger to do anything and still get half, and since I'm also ordered to pay my W's attorney fees I can't even afford to get vindictive on her. I have to take it up the rear and be happy about it.