Dear Andrew , Thank you so very much for your kind support ! I have been reading all the links that cadet gave me, in fact stayed up way too late reading them LOL. I think you are entirely correct in that the old marriage is destroyed and dead. Whether or not there will be a marriage in the future remains to be seen . I am at the moment trying very hard to focus on working on my issues . I have tons of time as I have never been alone in my life and I don't have a job right now. Many hours to fill trying hard not to Let them be filled with pain.H has said that he wants a divorce and while he does at times seem ambivalent I do believe him. I'm not convinced That focusing on the OW isn't useful as she may just have been a convenient Segway out of the home situation . Regardless of where he ran to, he was running from this relationship . I have over the past year indulged in some pretty crazy behavior but today I am in a much closer to acceptance stage . I'm not saying I am not hurting as I had thought we were going to grow old together and now I am in position i'll be 57 years old and alone . After 32 years of marriage and allowing myself to become far too isolated and dependent on my family dynamics I am now utterly and completely alone .
W-57,H-55 Married-32 years 3 kids S-30,S-28,D-25 EA / PA ? June 2015 Walked out ,moved in with OW 10/2015 moves back 1/2016 still in love with OW and moves out July 2016
