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[maybs]

I've been a little MIA the last few days and I just read what Sandi posted and I can see how all of that is true.

I feel like I got to a place where I have completely dropped the rope and just went about my own thing and all the sudden there my W is.

Calling me, texting me, trying to talk to me all the time. And when I'm distant with her the more she wants to talk. When I bring up practical things such as when I told her that I was planning on packing up the rest of her stuff from around the house so she could come get it, she gets upset and cries.

I kid you not she has started crying 4 times on the phone with me over the past few days and it's all been about practical things that go along with D.

Ironically this all started around the time I stopped focusing on trying to DB. I'm not actively "trying" to DB I'm just living my life for me and ironically that does automatically include many of the things that DB tells us to do.