Glad you dropped back briefly. Please stop having R chats with W. All that does at this stage is strengthen her resolve that it is over. It is over for now and words will not change that
I am glad you are getting out. I know that can be awkward ubut you will find people you want to spend time with and it will become easy/easier.
Hope to hear from you soon
R 25 years M 14 years S11 & S13 Working on it alone since Oct 2014 M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years) Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr. Next R chat Aug'17 Still together