I think I'm suffering from the "divorce is the easy way out" syndrome.

Struggling between I want my M (but my W is MIA at the moment) and D sounds like a fresh start.

I know this isn't meant to be a cake walk. I feel pain and hurt, but I think most of all I feel numb.

Since Sunday I've felt "off" and I don't think I'm back to me just yet.

-going through the motions.

Me(W): 29 EXW: 30
T: 6 M: 2
SD: 10
BD: 04/2016
PS: 04/2016
W officially "seeing" someone 09/2016
W filed 03/2017
Officially Divorced 11/2017