Trust me it's your anger. Your emotions are going to go up and down during this period. It's why they call it the roller coaster. Don't try to psychoanalyze your H. Even if it is depression, there's nothing you can do about it until he decides to do something. It's like alcoholism. To the person, there is no problem until they acknowledge it.
When he starts his spew, hold up your hand and tell him that while you understand that he has frustrations, he is not allowed to talk to you like that. Get your self-esteem back.
Sounds like your H is in classic MLC mode. Concentrate on yourself.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
