Husband just told me he is moving out.

[Mombear]

It's a hot mess. This morning, my 9 year old son went to use my ipad and it opened to a web page that was titled "Life after Divorce." He flipped out. He's old enough to know something has been up (daddy sleeping downstairs for months). He was inconsolable.

I grabbed my husband and told him what happened. He, of course, continues to be a waffling, confused, incoherent mess. He comes out with "I'm not sure I'm leaving in September after vacation. I'm not sure anymore . . ." We agree to tell DS that mommy and daddy aren't getting along right now and that we love him and right now there are no plans for a divorce. Which is true.

I don't love this response because I know the nuance between a separation and a divorce is going to be lost on a 9 year old. And I honestly do not see how we can avoid the separation at this point.

We were able to calm him down and distract him. After this morning, though, all I can think of is how I need to protect the kids as much as possible. And their father's erratic behavior and selfishness is too damaging. I think at this point he needs to go. I need him to go so we can work on healing and adjusting to the New Normal.