In other news.... things with GF have changed a little for me. In a way it is good, my feelings of "needing" her around is tapering off, maybe I'm just getting used to the "new normal." She is spending a lot of time at my house, but comes and goes some to do things with her kids or her parents who are only a couple miles away. We spent most of the weekend together, did a trip to visit my sister's family, went shopping together even. We are going camping together with my kids this week.
I have found myself questioning if we are right together. Not pulling the plug, things are good, but I have my eyes open. I have no idea what these feelings are. I am guessing part of it is that I still miss the "family" life. That I still wonder what things would be like to be back with xW. But then I remind myself that trying to work it out with xW would be nearly impossible, I would never fully forgive her for everything she has done, and be able to trust her again. So, one of the downfalls of starting a new R too soon, trying to process both the new and old R at the same time.
